what is love? what is friendship? what is the limit of both of it? Am i thinking straight ? these whole things are fucking my head off.
when i was in tenth I was lonely, though there were some friends but i was like a man of lonelyness. So i did not like to be with someone. In this way the year passed and then came an extraordinary time of my life. I started studying arts in class 11. The first day of my new class. I am writing this now just like it happened an hour ego, i can remerber the day just like a movie is running now infront of my eyes. I was sitting under a tree and watching boys and girls entering into the school. After some time our school prayer begin and finally we went to our rooms and waited for the girls to enter.
Its little funny when all the girls entered i look at them eagerly as i have never seen such girls before. Because truly speaking that it is a truth, i never saw girls closely or keenly they were nothing to me as i hated the love thing what a girl and boy do. It was because that when i was a little boy my parents quarrelled all the time so i thought why they got married if they just want to fight. But in that momment i thought let that be do what your heart says. I looked at those girls. And suddenly i found a girls nice looking straight hair glowing skin a face like goddess but then a fucking thing happened my eye got distracted by another girl not so damn hot or most beautiful but god knows what was that i could not move my eyes from her. The sight was so soothing that it was impossible to flick my eyes. I just got stuck. And now i am thinking sitting on my bedroom that was the fucking thing.
If that did not happened i was not sitting here like a lost child who have everything but feeling like empty and hollow tube that could not be filled by anyone it will remain the same till my death.
Till now i still think about those days sitting wandering like an ass hole. Was i stupid? Is this the stupidest thing? But i dont know why my heart says it was a damn good thing that must happen.
First day of my working heart i saw her and saw her and i fell in love with that person, though she did not know about it. I created her in my mind acharming loving person who was born only for me. Everyday i entered the school my eyes searched her.
Everyday i went to school it was just for her. I was not interested in school the main cause of my schooling was she.
